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today is september 15th 2024.I have been alive for 24 years , the last 8 years i have been alive as an artist. blah blah blah right ?!? idk . I thank all of you guys who support my life through art. I love u all who have bought stuff and worn it and adored it. iam currently watching dragon ball 1980s , and the last time i watched this show i was like 8 or idk but its a really good show , also packaging orders and going to start washing some clothes , its 1:00am , am i early bird or a night owl ? hm sometimes i just dont know.
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today is April 30th 2026 , it has been a long time since i last wrote on this section of my site .
to be honest a lot has happened , genuinely a lot of the same working everyday , the last 3 months i had my own store front in LA , it was amazing and hard work . This last month my long time relationship ended , and i moved out of our apartment in LA and back to my hometown in desert hot springs . Iam honestly still a bit of a mess with how this all feels , not a messy mess , but an honest mess.
iam going to really miss her , we were together for 6 years , and if i could time travel back to a point where i woke up and whats going on was a dream i had , i would've straightened my back , heart and mind and locked that shiii down with her hhahah , but life has a way of doing its thing , you can go living so unconcerned and oblivious to your lack of self love , until you become reminded by the lack of love you have been giving . Idk iam greatful for her for life..
Forever greatful for love in every form , if you're reding this i hope you are a lover as well , a lover so proud and giving and realizing of its gifts. Listening is key and becoming is a door way that forever finds us at every turn. Thank you for constantly supporting my life and craft everyone , iam still working hard and every day and way . I will start traveling soon and i can't wait to meet more of everyone .
in-lakech siempre ❤️.
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Today is Aug 31st 2026
As i looked into the night sky , i saw your smiles trail.
To each clustering grouping of stars , i saw you .
I felt you , i heard you , i smelt you .
I swear it on a god , the brown & green from
Your eyes emitted like a haze surrounding the moon.
With one hand i wrote to you a letter in the sky , when finished i shaped this imaginary intention into a paper airplane and i flew it to you .
I don’t give a fuck if it lands tommorow , next month , years or never in this lifetime.
All i care now is about how good it felt to look in the night sky and recognize you , to see you and communicate,to compare the sky and all its nights to you so easily.
Enlightenment through melancholy 😔
I realize the poems are fading , the ability
To remember your tones and literal sounds are fading , the lack of a “ way back “ settles & newness Terraforms back into an original state ?? How ?
It’s cuz tonight i looked up
To the night sky and i saw your eyes and smile,
It’s okay cuz tonight i looked up and remembered for a moment how i used to look at all
Around , before you came around & became matter and sound. To each star out there in the night sky , is to each and one of us , living and breathing.
to the night sky and what’s to become , thank you , iam sorry , i love you , i forgive you , and iam so greatful for all that we knew .
Time for tommorow to fuuuuuuucken start
Orders to ship out today ALOOT like a lot of orders , it's insane ! also need to schedule doc appointment and physical therapist for right hand , it has beeen locking recently very interesting feeling , but i don't question it given how many hours my hand holds its form painting idk